I’m going to the University of Edinburgh to study politics in less than two weeks. This is a subject I am hugely passionate about and something I do know a huge amount about, but recently I have been having my doubts as to whether it is actually the right thing to study.
At school I studied Modern Studies rather than politics. Modern Studies is like a mixture between politics and sociology with some economics and social policy type stuff thrown in as well. I had a fabulous modern studies teacher who now is one of my very good friends as well as an ex teacher. Sometimes I wonder if my passion for the subject came completely from the fact that she was so inspiring when teaching it. We had so many debates and discussions about current issues and what was going on in the world and the Tories’ latest screw up (in our opinion) or the most recent, sneaky thing the SNP were trying to do. So, having not been in her class for more than three months now, and having completely neglected keeping up to date with the news, I’ve started to wonder if politics is actually the right thing for me to go and study. I used to discuss politics and current events so often and in so much depth that as soon as I heard about them my opinions and my thoughts on issues were forming and solidifying straight away but now that just doesn’t happen. And it’s made me think that I’m either losing interest in something that used to fascinate me so much or that I’m simply becoming too lazy to be good enough to study it. I’m conflicted! It could be a good thing I’m having a break from all things political because then when I get to Edinburgh on the 14th my fascination will be reignited and I’ll throw myself into it and have a fabulous time. I just don’t know. And it’s making me nervous.
And I just wrote the word politics too many times and now it just sounds funny.